despair

despair
disappointment
made large
by
self-doubt
or
self-hate

so
you go on

knowing and accepting
disappointment

as enough
without
needing
to make it more

knowing disappointment
before

knowing you survived

mistake

wow
that was a mistake

so

"i gotta watch out
for that next time"

or

how to figure that one out
a bit better

or

mistakes are part and parcel
of life and growth

feeling bad

feeling bad
like you've let someone down
will happen
often
if you
let it

so
what will
you do
now?

next time?

other than make a friend
of guilt and regret

regret

if i think i wish i had
the next thought is
i wish i hadn't
wished i had

so
i want to go
to a new idea

like
that's not helping right now

not the way to get to where
i want to go

regret
like thoughts of my own demise

is just a bit worse
than useless